I broke things off with my love of 4 years. No yelling, no anger, no hate. We just grew in different ways. We were planning on starting a family. He told me today that he didn't even really want kids. I told him multiple times during trying if he was fully in and he always replied with yes. I was gonna have a kid with him. I was gonna grow old with him. But he started getting to comfortable and stopped doing the little things. No flowers, No special dates, No helping around the house, etc. This is day 1 and it hurts so bad being in love but having to let go of that person. I don't know if I wanna scream or cry or get angry. It hurts so so so so so much. The worst pain. He isn't moving out for another possible 3 months. Its gonna be hard having to see him a lot. I cannot grieve what we once had properly until he has moved. Today we hugged each other before he went to work and just sobbed. Hearing him like that hurt so much. No one warns you about the breakups that don't involve hate.