M16 my birthday just rolled around (24/7/10) and I’ve had a lot of time to sit and think to myself during a 3 hour walk by myself. When I was about 7 years old I was raped multiple times a day by my neighbour he would have been around 16 at the time and I looked up to him as an older brother. He showed me porn and told me what jerking off was when I was 6 and when I was older he made me suck him off and i didn’t think much of it. I’ve had struggles with my identity since then. For a while I had a raping kink I would watch videos of it while jerking off for hours I’ve watched terrible things that I am so ashamed of my mother has once walked in on me jerking off to horse porn. I still have a really bad porn addiction but I don’t watch rape shit anymore. One night when I was 14 I told my mother what happened to me when I was younger and maybe a week or two after she took me to the police station to get some info out of me I said nothing. I wouldn’t mind if someone reached out ig: @wyajck