i wanted to say that i want them to burn everything i had, that i want to go out in a burning flame so bright it gets etched in your eyes. but when i put more thought into it, god i hated the thought i wanted to say that i want them to hide my stuff in the darkest corner they can find. but that sounds no good either. i mean, either one just feels like they're forgetting me. throwing me away. i dont want that. i dont want them to touch my stuff at all. let them gather dust. let my paper star strips go unfolded. my clothes unworn. my games wondering where the girl who used to log in everyday went. i wanted to tell *him* that if i died early, to get rid of every trace of me in his life. but isnt that such a horrible way to go? i hate it. i dont wanna be forgotten hell no. i want to tell him that he can't move on, not after 10 years, not for a lifetime. i want to tell him to wear that stupid ring on his pinky for the rest of his damn life. but thats so selfish.