I always had this with me, where I ignore the pain and live out my life and after weeks of ignoring it, it'll struck me down. I've been doin this ever since I entered this whole situationship with someone. It became my coping mechanism and yeah. So ito na nga ang kuwento, I met her way back 2023 pero I didn't know her fully yet. I just got a chance when she became my classmate again when I was in 11th grade. It's true i had a feelings for her, but because of that, I overlooked or over romanticize whatever we had. I knew that there are some of her actions hurt me a lot, but I chose to ignore because it was her "first relationship". But yeah, ngayong iniisip ko, kasalanan ko ba na hindi nya maramdaman? Anw, we broke up fr fr last month. I decided to call it off because I'd come to realize that I deserve so much better. And yk, we cannot force to fix a relationship if the other party doesnt get you at all. So yeah, I gave up. Pero ayun, that break up pain hits me rn, but ayaw ko na