all of this has just been building up I don't know what to do, I feel like I'm never enough how much I try to help or make my life as successful as possible. I'm always second place in everything. Whither it's looks, places in a race, or just in life or family. Someday I just want to be first place, to have my own spotlight... But I can't seem to have that. I feel selfish for thinking this. I don't know what to do now, I'm trying not to cut myself again— but It's really tempting right now. My parents don't know that I still cut myself. I'm too scared to tell them. I'm scared they'll threaten me with "help" or they'll say that I just want attention. I can't tell anyone anything nowadays.
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