im terrified everyone will forget about me or will end up hating me. ik they won't but whenever I have a friendship I always have that fear looming over me and it make me wanna puke. I hate that I hate myself but I love everyone because I dont want to be a bitch. none of that love ever comes back to me and im so exhausted because I always give but rarely receive. and its not like im giving with the motive of getting something in return but my support system suddenly disappears as soon as I actually need help. I'm tired. I dont want to be alive anymore but ik people will miss me if im gone so im guilttripping myself to stay alove. I love yall, ik ur a wonderful person and stay safe out there. remember there's a light at the end of the tunnel, not matter how long it may be