I'm so genuinely unlovable. I have no close friends, nobody really gives a shit about having me around, nobody wakes up and thinks about me, nobody checks in on me often, my own bf doesn't make me feel very loved but I don't want to tell him because I don't want him to feel bad and he has it so much more fucking worse than I do, he also clearly favors his bsf over me. I'm such a pathetic crybaby. I'm a sore loser. I don't feel wanted and I don't feel needed. Who genuinely wants me in their life forever? Platonically or romantically, I don't think a soul could care less. Who even am i? I'm winging life at this point. I don't know what ill do. I don't know who ill be. I think about killing myself every day but ill never do it because I'm a stupid wuss. I really just want someone to care. Its so so fucking based I might tell my mom even though I've never talked to her like that. I want therapy or counselling. I want care. I'm such a crybaby. I cry everyday. Omd.