I have a best friend, we don't look alike, she's "normie" ,just label her, while i'm more "punk" also just to label, that never interfered, she was my only friend when our classmates bullied me But lately she's been distant, she always was a small adult, we're just 16 and she already act like she's married, she never makes time for me, but i can only swallow the angst in my chest because i did the same I used to hate her when i was 12, because i was scared my new friends in my new school would get jealous I feel guilty, but i can't do anything, is my fault, i deserve being left aside by her but i wish i could have time to fix things, i wanted to watch Backrooms with her, but she only ignored me the whole month before the movie came out, i had to go with my mom and dad because i'm a loser, but i would've liked to go with her, i wish for her to look out for me, but i can't complain, again, i did the same she's doing before