I'm still young why do i feel like this My life is great people would kill to have my life so why am I depressed and suicidal and why am I questioning my gender I want to be seen but when that happens i hate it i dont like being the center of attention. i cant share this anywhere else because my parents/friends will probably find it and talk to me on it and i hate that just please i want to be happy not dull i want a reason to get out of bed in the mornings i dont think ill live past 20 i find myself disgusting and gross i want to get rid of this body i dont want to be here or anywhere for that matter. the only reason why im still here is because i dont want to put the pain on my friends and family why do i care so much about what others think. i want to help others but i cant i dont leave my house + im broken i dont think ill ever be full i want to love and have other love me and i know people do but i need a sign im not good at anythings i dont to say thing are good when they arent