i hate summer. my mental health gets so much worse. the heat sucks, my dysphoria gets a thousand times worse, my dog is sick and is going to die, im stuck at home with my crappy family, i dont see or talk to anyone i dont live with, im completely isolated, i cant sleep or i sleep way too much, i dont get out of bed, im gaining weight, my scars are fading, i keep relapsing, and i feel like im completely invalid. im not even fifteen yet but ive been struggling with sh for over four years. i think im numb again, i think thats why i keep relapsing and i dont like that my scars are fading. i feel like without them i havent really struggled. im also trans but dont pass at all, i NEED a binder or at least something to hide my chest, i cant come out to my parents. my sister knows that im queer but not that im trans and one of my friends accidentally outed me to my brother and he keeps subtly mentioning it. i know that i am valid in both my identity and my mental health but i dont feel like it