Unfiltered vent: I have so much hate for my life right now. Everything from A through Z sucks. Even my kid is driving me crazy and bringing me no joy right now. I'm a miserable prick. That's the worst part. Nothing brings me joy. I've ruined literally every relationship I've ever had. I'm 38 years old and I've just made so many mistakes. I can never seem to make myself happy or content. I'm a miserable prick. Miserable. I don't fit in anywhere. I'm stupid, but actually I'm pretty smart. I struggle socially. I'm mean to my poor child. I brought him into this world without his consent and I had no clue what I was getting myself into. I was not prepared to be a parent and raise another human being. I have no idea what happened to my ethics. I don't even want to work with a therapist because they all just piss me off. None of them understand me or even act like they care.