Here's the thing with suicide. It's discouraged and called selfish. What is selfish is treating people like punching bags and acting like they need to exsist for your sake. What is selfish is that the discomfort of your family member or friend killing themself is too much for YOU but you never thought about how much they were going through. No fuck that. Their life belongs to them and if they want to die then that's THEIR CHOICE. If you are having suicidal thoughts, I've been there. I don't judge you or shame you for it. It's up to you but please remember that some peice of garbage who doesn't understand or respect you shouldn't be the reason why you die. You are worth more than them and their trashy behavior. It's up to you. Have courage no matter what you decide. That courage grants you honor.