My best friend’s older brother killed himself and I don’t know what to do. I have this guilt that I didn’t respond sooner when I got the message, I didn’t know I got it until I tried to send her this funny picture of myself when I went bowling. Can’t even do the bare minimum of being there for her because I have to go to another state by the end of the week to watch my cousin and have already had my flight paid for by my aunt. If it were my own ticket I paid for I would’ve already cancelled the flight. I don’t want to make this about myself because it isn’t about me but I get such a heavy grief when she’s upset. She deserves the world, we’re starting college soon, she has a future to look forward too, and then this happened. I love her so much I wish she didn’t have to go through this ever at all. She’s my world.