I feel constant guilt for everything Ive done or said. I was rude to so many people and said somethings i shouldn’t have said to them. Im scared to say anything about It, I’ve felt so guilty about what I have said to the point i got depressed and basically suicidal again. I do not think any of the things i said were funny and im just sad I didn’t realize it was bad and no one called me out on it ether. I want to become a better person truly. I don’t even think he remembers what I said nor does anyone else I was in room with does. But i still hate myself for it. We weren’t close at all and he was just a friend of a friend. I hate the fact I was so oblivious to all my past actions and no one i knew called me out on it so i could immediately apologize and take accountability. I regret so much In life and it hurts me so bad, I wish I was a better person sooner.