I feel so lonely and I'm in this weird space where I want to talk and connect to ppl but I'm so bad at it and I don't see the point anymore. I've slowly just been losing contact w ppl but I didn't talk to that many anyways so ig it doesn't matter. I've also always just been generally unnerving growing up which doesn't help at all. There's no one to talk to at all which is what gets me the most. If I dropped off the face of the planet and deleted everything idk if ppl would notice. At the same time, it feels like the only way I'm meant to live. If I had to describe it, I'd say I'm a piece that is objectively meant to fit but still othered. Maybe my size isn't right for the spot I go in, or my design is a solid color instead of the pattern needed - maybe its both. I think I could handle everything else happening rn if I had an other half, but I don't think I do. I'm always going to feel out of place and lonely no matter where I am. Idk how much longer I can live like this tbh.