ive been building up so much pain, taking in others while living in a home with toxic family and their trying to make my future how they want it and i honestly am getting tired but i cant risk my little sister having to bury her 17 year old sister because the world was to much and the voices were to loud, my parents are forcing me to go military when i dont wanna go anymore like ya i wanted to at one point but now i dont and i dont have the guts to tell them no, my brother and mother think im stupid and their right i guess i am and i guess im also crazy, my boyfriend never has time for me anymore and its killing me because at one time he would pause and check on me he doesnt do that anymore and im done im done trying to be help others im done with all of it i just wanna vanish and hide from the world but i cant because every where i go someone knows me not becuse they met me but because they met my dad and now i cant be free im trapped in a world prison i just want out