I want to stop being such a pervert. I kept thinking about my bf doing stuff to me and sometimes it just kicks in and makes me wanna throw up.. How do I get rid of this mind.. And then I kept replaying old memories when I get sa'd in the internet (I enjoyed it at that time, it feels so fresh and I really love it) I was so stupid and such a kid back then. Now that I think about it.. It'll get worse once I grew up and become real adults. I can't even imagine seeing my bf irl anymore. I feel bad for him because I really am a slut. I feel so disgusting. I wanna kill myself if it's possible now