People always asks me why my room is always dark or kung bakit palagi akong naka kumot. Well to answer your questions, these habits of mine had always been my coping mechanisms. The dark room makes me feel safe, na okay lang ang lahat. I can freely cry because nobody will see my tears. I envy those people na may support system, na may mapag sasabihan sila whenever things feels very heavy. I hate how I turned out to be, I hate how I am ranting to a random website here sa internet just to make things feel better. I hate every little inconvenience of my life, I hate how clueless I am about the real life. I hate how I want to cry because everything's just heavy but I can't. I hate how my head swells every time may problema ako. I hate how I automatically go back to my worst habits. I hate myself in general. I wish I was someone else.