I've realised that, I don't want relationships because I'm 'aroace' it's because I'm ugly. I feel as if I'm not enough, as if I am not enough for someone to love. Something about me is that I often actually fantasize about someone who truly loved me and held me of their devotion dying so I can yearn and mourn over them. It is very hard for me to just comprehend the fact that someone could love another person enough to just do everything together. Bake together, go on dates, sleep on the phone, cuddling, becoming one by interlacing and having children. I'm simply just too disgusting to do that. I can't imagine someone actually loving me, for me, love requires everything, but I simply can't give everything. I am a disgrace, a burden, every insult you could ever throw at me is just simply true by nature. I've accepted this fact, but I can't live with it.