im tired. i want to left him but my heart cant do it. im not fully ready to left him cause i still love him. im tired of begging for him to treat me better. am i not worth it? why he cant change for me, for our relationship? is it hard to treat me better? is it hard for him to be better? Am I not the girl he likes, or does he really not want to change for our relationship. am i wrong to feel this? am i not allowed to feel something that will make me question him? am i a bad partner?