is it wrong that i want love like they have in the cartoons, and how the people in the cartoons check if their partners are okay, and they actually try and comfort them when they're crying. I not really his fault for how he acts but i just wish he would at least try for me, and he KNOWS (or atleast knows) that im in pain and i cant be left alone when im having a breakdown, but i always make things worse and i make him cry and i just gave up on showing my feelings around him cause i dont wanna hurt him anymore, but if i keep holding all of this pain in its going to end of worse for me, and when i ask him to call he said "not rn i dont feel like it" but i have a feeling that he always calls his bestfriend, and im scared that he doesnt want to hear my voice or even be around me. I love how goofy he is but when im having my moments i just wish he would be there and comfort me.