My entire life i have never ever had a long time friendship that has been my best friend as well. I am always the floater friend, im always the second choice whenever someone's busy, i never get invited to things, im always walking behind or in the grass. I am kind of a shitty person now and i can admit that. I recently made a new friend group at school but now we're drifting and nobody ever answers my texts or calls and i know it sounds like it's me but i have tried so many times to alter my personality like to be nicer or meaner to fit in or funny or louder or quieter and yes i've also tried just to be myself but im having to accept the fact that ill always truly be alone
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