This is my first time posting on a site like this, but I just wanted to let out my emotions. I genuinely feel like living isn't worth it anymore. I'm incompetent, lazy, unable to socialize, no friends, useless, and contribute quite literally nothing in this shitty life. That woman who is my mother can't even try to treat her own child right. Today she used my mental health problems against me when I finally built up the courage to talk to her about it after years, yet she hit me and screamed at me earlier for not wanting to go outside. It's a Sunday, I'm exhausted and sick of going to school. Yeah, it's safer than at home, but still shitty. It's not like I have a reason to get out of bed or be alive at all, I just want to rest.. and then she comes in demanding me to go outside and get 'fresh air' thinking she's helping me by doing this. Like, no shit. I don't force myself to act holly-jolly like I'm perfectly fine and not going through a fucking mental breakdown all alone.