Im genuinely fed with everything, im hurting and i seek comfort. It hurts when my own sister genuinely hates me. My sister and I didn’t speak for few years and finally got back to talking. It felt good and i always came up to her. A little fight happened and i told her that she looks dumb for this boy, she said im not letting her feel loved. But no she genuinely looks desperate for him and he’s playing in her face. We argued more and she suddenly lashed out and showed her true colors. “I hate u so much” those words broke me down. Words cannot explain the pain i endured in this moment. It’s not just her but my own family sees me as a cruse from god. I try so hard to get attention, I do good in school, I clean and much more. But when I show them any achievements they see it as I want something from them. Please I just want to be loved and my own friends are not the best. They vent constantly to me but the second I desperately need someone. No one is around, I feel like a bird.