you know when things get rough and heavy? there is only one way to release it all, with Him. all I know is all of my struggles and been going through has reasons that He can answer in no time, but sometimes when things get really weird and in chaos, I can't deny that sometimes I will start to have questions in my mind which is unusual for me before. I always believe that every step of the way is because He allows it and I have no right to question it. Before I'm always proud that I am a living testimony of His blessings and by faith, but right now, how? I wanna go back when the fire is still there, where when things got heavy I always know where to go, when things get unsteady I know that my faith wont fail me, right now. I wanna build my way back to Him like I am the the one in a hundred that He will find. I always believe that even if I don't praise Him every Sunday He's still with me with by faith. That thing will never change as my experiences grow deeper.