Have I dated people? Yeah. But I've liked the same guy while being in all the relationships I've been in. I shouldn't be in love with him. Last year, I asked him to be in a QPR (queer platonic relationship) with me, and he said yes. Ever since then, we've hugged, cuddled, and held hands a lot more. I remember this one time on a bus where he picked the seat with me, so he could then sleep on my shoulder. Everything between us has always been platonic. I'm also in a trio with him and another friend, and he started dating that friend. He's happy of course. And I should be happy for them too. But I hate it so much. I hate being in love with someone I can never be with. I hate knowing the fact that he will always be in love with that person, but never me, in every life. It hurts, but what role do I even have.