idk kween. i feel so empty. how can i let myself be used all the time, every goddamn time. am i hard to love? is it hard to take me seriously? is it hard to make the girlfriend? am i only for that? am i- fuck nvm. am i only made for casual? i only want to be loved. and loved. is that hard? i only want to recieve getle kisses, random hugs, just because flowers, heart to heart talk without doing the thing, listens to me all the time, takes me serious, loves me sm more than i love him, cooks me, makes me laugh all the time, helps me, patient, doesn't take off my clothes bcs he has sm respect to me and to himself (has self control). fuck it if i can't have him. my only wish for myself is that i'll hopefully let someone use me everytime even if i also benefited from it bcs it will just left me the empty feeling of i wasn't like this before. hugs to the girls whose numb as me and felt the same thing like me.