Today I net some of my friend from high school. Lovely bunch... I had fun except in-between I was zoning out of know why it just felt sad... After the meet up ended it left a bitter after taste and I felt so sad and dissapointed ..... in myself....they have grown so much! They are so smart! And where am I here.....like always..... just there....over the years I have just gotten dumber and duller nothing to my name ...nothing to show for myself.... I don't have any talent or any interests.... I'm not even good in particular field ... I'm such a dissapointed why do I even live seriously..... I'm not attached to life to being with. ..I'm not pretty......not smart or intelligent....I'm not even religious enough.... so what am I.........why am I like this why am I so numb and dumb... my point of living is just pointless...I can't stand myself