17 july jay just asked whats wrong wow i guess i scrapped this being a good week yesterday jeez more of a reason to try again i just wanna die i want her to know somethings wrong and help me but i dont wanna tell her i lied im fucking shitty im crying again i need to get over myself.. --- 09:29am stop bugging jay jsut piss off nobody cares my eyes hurt i genuinely wanna take some instagram pictures but id have to edit them so much i miss fatima and someone else other than jay if i got back in her life im just gonna fuck shit up worse im crying im crying im crying i hate myself i wanna end it i dont deserve to live i dont even miss liam atp i just miss comfort my face is soaking wet ive been crying for two hours i cant ask for help i just cant it hurts i need a hug i want someone to care, idk who i have people. people who say they care. but im nobodys number 1 i mean theres cass...