I feel like the potential man meme I started so many things and I want to be a better, creative person but I’m so afraid of people perceiving what I make and hating it (or worse like and spread it but no one else agrees). I’m not confident in myself, in expressing my culture or my interests. I wish I never gave up on the things I did because now I feel like I can’t get good at them. I’ve succeeded at things before when I thought I wouldn’t but those experiences have just made me lazier and have this awful hope that everything will work out. And I don’t think they will this time and I can’t bear to face the consequences If I start now I’ll have to face friends better than me, who are more comfortable with their ability. And I’m afraid if I show them what I do they’ll say sweet things and not mean a word. There are so many alternative ways to solve my problems and I’m too much of a coward to do anything so I’ll be stuck here in mediocrity