Last night, when I told my mom a bit about my problems that I am feeling sad for the past few months. She said that it is "silly" that I feel like that and people have it worse. That I should be grateful for what I have and the family I have. BUT I DO FEEL GRATEFUL. But she just turned it around on me. I have a full vent book filled with how I wanted to kill myself when I was 12 or 11, and now I'm 13. And I still feel like this. I can't even tell anyone that I feel like I want to kill myself, cause it would be like how my mother said. "Other people have it worse" I KNOW, AND I'M SORRY FOR THAT. I'LL DO BETTER I SWEAR. And every night I stay up in bed thinking that I was a bad friend to my only friend that I have. I feel bad for not talking to them sometimes. I can't wait for July 5th 2028. Just to tell you guys, I love you still. Godspeed :') -ON