I just feel so burnt out now, and it's only the third week of school. The pressure of acheiving this impossible dream of beig a scholar while all my other classmates are so much more capable than me in achieving such a dream. I'm so insecure that I notice it's starting to affect my friendships in how I see my friends, because everytime I do, envy and jealousy gets mixed in, and I don't want that to get in the way of how much my friends mean to me because they're the only reason why I'm not percieved as a lonely freak in the school. I'm just so tired of everything, and the worst part is I don't have anyone to run to because I'm overthinking so much to the point of just not telling anyone anything so they don't get burdened with my suffering. I'm so tired, I just want to die.