I wish I had the heart to tell my mom so many things, but most of all I wish I could tell her that the day I attempted, she made me go to school. I had told a friend that I did it and asked them not to tell anyone and then they did and I thought about trying again when I got home and I just. Didn't tell my mom anything, she didn't even seem to notice how off I was. I don't want her to think any of what's wrong with me is her fault, but I want to tell her how much that affected me, I just wish I knew how.