I feel so ugly that I genuinely don’t want to be a part of society. I’m at the point where I really need a job but every time I think of it I just imagine every person who will see me there and look at me and perceive me. I don’t want to be seen but it’s not an option. I know that I am ugly. I can tell by the way people treat me and look at me. The way people will see me as my face and body before seeing me as a human being. I don’t take pictures, I don’t stare in the mirror, I switched schools in 7th grade and I still keep in contact with my one and only friend but she hasn’t seen my face since then even though she lives 20 minutes away and it’s now been two years since I graduated high school. And as much as I want to say I truly hate myself I can’t. I just hate being a part of a society where I’m treated like a lesser being for the way I look. I wish I didn’t care but I care so much and it feels so unfair. I just want to be seen as a human.