i dont know who i should talk to cause my bf just isnt available, im starving cause i dont deserve to eat, and i genuinely think people like me should die, they infected me when i was a kid, and now im just a monster, i thought i had moved on from that but yesterday the gf of my ex bf randomly started to trash me cause he told her EVERYTHING i confessed to him back then, and now i dont know what to do anymore. as a narc, i just cant stand being that pathetic hideous little thing, what if the rumors come back because of her, what if i can never get over that and integrate, i hate myself so much, im a lonely and alone little bag of dirt
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