It's getting worse day by day. At first it started as simple depression (or so i thought,) but day after day I could feel a small part of me drifting into the abyss, slowly, but most definitely surely. I originally thought it was some 'winter depression', as they say, but soon later I realized that was not the case for me. I can remember the exact moment where I realized that 'I've lost it' and it was going to get much worse. Fast forward, last year December is when I truly have given up on myself. This is when the 'major winter depression' kicked in. I sh for some time and it was just draining. Though for some reason, back to the time period when I sh, compared to my present state today, it seemed like I was doing better than which surprises me a lot. Nowadays I just seem miserable more than ever and it just sucks you know? After my recent trip to the hospital, I think it started a new problem for me. My body. I've always been fat growing up and I always tried to change but I'd co-