really want my ex back. After thinking about it for 7 months, I was so mean to him. I didn’t know what love meant…and I want him in specific. I want to be his boyfriend again, but not just that as a title. I want him to know that I love him so dearly. He holds so much value in my heart I can barely put it into words, no matter what I say. I was such a coward when I dated him, so scared to ask questions about why he stopped holding hands with me after the second day of holding hands in the hallways. I just didn’t want to get on his nerves. My fear of making him weirded out was the main thing that made him leave. I also want him to know that I will always be there. I hate the way that he speaks about himself. It breaks my heart. I want him to be happy, truly happy. I don’t want him to be jealous that he cannot get a boyfriend. I just want to see him happy.