I hate the way I look so much My acne is so bad and I have thin hair that looks so ugly. My eye bags are so bad. I Hhate my clothes. My body just sticks out of themand looks weird. I hate my personality and my awkwardness. I hate how dumb I am and how impulsive I am. I think my bf and my friends are just pretending to like me or soon they are gonna realize they dont like me. I have no idea what I gonna do in the future. i suck at the only sport Ive ever played. I hate school. I hate the teachers. I hate the counselors. I hate the admin. I hate myself and I wanna cut myself so badly. Even after venting I want to. I think im just gonna draw on myself in red marker to distract myself. Ill cut myself if im still feeling bad tomorrow at 12pm. I just need to see if I can fight the urge.