God I hat my life I hate everyone! Everything makes me feel like absolute shit and like I'm about to lash out at everyone. I keep having angry flashes imagining myself breakingdown and scream and hit everything and everyone and then kill myself. Ofc I would never do that I'm too much of a coward. NOBODY UNDERSTANDS! I clearly feel shitty and look like I'm seconds away from crying and screaming yet no fucking friend of mine does any fucking thing. They're there when it comes to fun things but when I feel like trash they don't say anything. I have vented multiple times to this one friend and I'm in a trio but I trust that friend more + bc I already hate being vulnerable with others. So yeah she knows about everything and knows that I want to kill myself and yet they laugh and continue smiling while not doing shit about it! And then when I voice my feelings they just go quiet like yeah... and then continue their fucking conversation. I feel like I'm just fucking replaceable!!!