My worst fear is currently happening and I'm scared to talk to my step dad who is the only parent I have. I just graduated high school a few months ago and now I'm pregnant. I've never wanted kids or to become pregnant so I was safe, but even I know protection is never 100%. I have big dreams, I have the drive to chase my goals, I don't want to be tied down, but the foster system would be terrible so I have to resort to abortion or self-induced miscarriage. I feel terrible for the choices I'm making in order to terminate it but the only adult I felt comfortable telling was my high school guidance counselor. I just want it to go away, like an etch a sketch, just shake me and make me disappear because I don't know how I'll be able to live with myself knowing this happened. And so close to the 1 year anniversary of my best friends passing. The only way it could get worse is if I don't miscarry, and I hate to say it but if nothing works I might simply end everything.