i hate this . i maybe have two friends who know the real me . i wanna make new friends who i share more things but i feel like most of my old friends are holding me back . i remeber once when me and my friend were in this cosmetic shop and like she asked to put some concelar on my face and i said no and she kept insisting that it would cover my redness or somthing and then she was like " it wont give you pimpels " ( i have acne , not really bad bad but i have a lot ) and it just felt weird . a few min later she was like " the summer is your time for a glowup! i can help you glow up" and i said " im already pretty and gorgeous " and she was like " yea , but still you could..." and that really set me off beacause i was confident for the first time in forever for the way my hair face and body looks.... and i know she didnt mean this as somthing mean . it just really set me off......