I’ve been in a constant state of panic since the age of 10… What do I want to do with my life??? As I get closer and closer to graduating, college, LIFE, I feel the increasing weight of the world on me. The thing is I’ve always wanted to be an actress, but as I’ve gotten older, I get more and more socially awkward, anxious, and self-conscious which really deters me from pursuing that. Not to mention, EVERYONE around me knows exactly what they want to do and their goals for life while i’m sitting here trying to find absolutely anything to do with my life because I know that acting will never ever ever ever work out for me. No one knows how absolutely isolated and terrified of life I feel. I have no idea what to do with myself and feel completely paralyzed by the magnitude of the world ahead of me. I don’t want to end up like my father switching from job to job just to earn a living while being miserable.