Since i’ve started to want to change, to become someone better, to be stronger, to become braver, kinder. The only thing i’ve experimented is a STRONG feeling of pure HATE towards a lot of people, does who didn't follow the rules, does who didn't bring respect to parents/friends/professors and even the earth, im so unhappy and full of HATE and that's probably the only thing that keeps me going, the insane HATE i prove, i want or more i NEED to win because no one believes in me, i NEED to prove them wrong, they are so wrong so damn wrong, i’ll be better, better then anyone, i NEED to be the best in this world, i cant stand the fact that im not the best and yet i still live with it, i like competition i want to slam them, i NEED to win, people don’t get how deep this NEED is. I NEED to be violent, i NEED to HATE if i dont i would only disappear. And i HATE how everyone keeps criticizing me like they are better, “haha loser you read comics” “no you wont be able” “i know you” like they do