I don't know if its me or if it's trauma,I believe it is trauma, I always flinch when my mom raises my voice, she does nothing bad it's just I grew up around drinking and fighting, I still remember everything and I was the one who always was awake listening while my sister slept, everything was out of control, during school this year I love selling snacks, ever since I was a kid u dreamed of being a future entrepreneur and when my mom found out she said no, I was heartbroken and had to get my dad involved so I can be able to do it, now I think about it all through the 2nd semester of school I was depressed and just lived by, idk what I feel but after hearing my moms voice yelling, she just raised her voice before leaving, I know I instantly got scared and backed away, mostly because last semester she took away my phone for me misbehaving because of my depression but she didn't know I was, the phone is the only thing I got to keep me sane from breaking down. I just don't know.