my online girlfriend aint gonna be able to talk to me anymore for 3 months. Im spiraling. I feel so paranoid. I love her so much, she makes me so happy. I feel like shes the only good thing ive done with my life

i hate how i sweat around people i want to talk to, its embarrassing i feel ugly

I feel all my friends and things that I used to find comfort in are disappearing, like I'm the one that doesn't want to engage with what I once loved...no one seems to listen now, or share the same interests that I do. and ask me "Why won't you just talk to me! Theres so much to talk about!" Then turn around and just zone out on me when I do wanna chat...then make me feel I'm the problem...Thank you for reading...