I feel all my life has been a lie. I lie about things, I manipulated people. Just what kind of person am I? I dwell on my past, when things get better, I just recall my past actions. I make mistakes daily and all of them put a weight on me, I feel like I'm about to explode at any moment. I am not really close to religious beliefs, but, out of desesperation I beg for God to give me a second chance, to be born again, but with this mind of mine, it's not the greatest idea. I'm tired of everything, I'm paranoid of my friends, family and everyone to discover how much of a shitty person I could be. I just want help, I'm tired of living like this, I don't even want to continue. I'm scared, too scared. I want to sleep all day just to escape this. Everything is so distant to me, I don't connect with anybody nor anything anymore, not even with myself.