I’m 20 years old and I don’t have a job and I’m not in school and I don’t have any friends I feel like I’m dead I don’t have a job because I don’t know how to do anything and I’m terrified of everything I got put on disability for my autism but I don’t really think I need it. I think I just stupid and lazy and incompetent and scared. There was a time when I really thought I’d go to collage which is so funny to think back on now. I barely made it through highschool how was I ever gonna make myself go to EXTRA school? Even back in highschool I only had two ish friends, now I’m just alone man. I loved them both so much but I kept drifting away because I was so scared to go out and I wanted to just be alone and now I am so ! SO! Whatever , I’m going nowhere and doing nothing and I’m dead and still here, I don’t see a future. I so scared of everything. I wanna see places and meet people and love things again. But I don’t see that happening anymore.