I’m curled up in a ball in a corner not in bed at 3am because my boyfriend can’t keep his urges to himself. I told him I’m not ready for sex but every single night for the past few weeks he touches me non consensually and touches himself after I don’t reciprocate. I’m too emotionally exhausted and scared to confront him because I have nowhere to escape to. I am so fucking tired of not having a safe bed to sleep in. I’m so tired of feeling unsafe around the one person I should be the most protected by. I feel so trapped in this relationship and this house. I’ve wanted to leave for months but I have nowhere to go. I am just so so so so tired of this life that never gets better.