I’m queer. I like it, it makes me feel more free and comfortable to know who I am. But I hide it cause I’m kinda a coward. My family is nice but they are traditional and Catholic. It isn’t anything wrong with that, it’s just I know they expect something different with such pride that I wonder if what I offer would even feel the same in our relationships. It sucks cause I love my family, I want to connect with them, especially as a no sabo kid. I know some kinda dog on me for not learning, and I’m sure they got valid points but it hurts, I’m trying and I know customs. I’m not trying to be anything but only to fit in a way that makes them and myself proud. I love them that remembering the one family member’s horrified shushing face of hearing queer mentioned burns my mind. I thought over and over how my dad would react, how he would dread on one day showing what I am to his family members. He loves me and I love him so I think holding it in for now to prevent that future hurt.