im so fucking tired of everything. I dont wanna kms but i dont want to live either. All my friends act like im an extension, like im expendable. Ive put in so much effort with these people and yet they dont care about me. My mom always switches her opinion on me and makes me cry almost every day. My dad tells me that things will get better but he never does anything unless my mom starts becoming “too harsh” and he’s never home anyways. All people ever do is complain about what i cant achieve. Other adults idolize me as a “golden child” and say i’m mature and hardworking unlike their kids. Im severely depressed ( not diagnosed just an opinion ). And ive been trying to get a therapist but my mom keeps putting it off. One of my friends talked shit abt me and hated me and now that they apologized they expect me to unblock them on everything. I dont wanna talk to them. I dont wanna talk to anyone. I wish i could do something to make this pain go away.